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♡♬ Dorothy's Secret ♪ ♡☜♥☞ I'm the BEST DAMN THING that your eyes have ever seen! 6月19日 Dorothy appearedLast Sunday i went shopping with Cathy. Bought a jean short skirt, a pair of boxers and red high heels. OMG! Dorothy bought HIGH HEELS!!! Amazing huh? But it's true. I just wanted to know how it feels to wear high heels and now i know it. Really very uncomfortable to wear them especially when walking down stairs. This morning i planed to wear my new skirt and the high heels and I did wear them out. But when I went down to the fourth floor i decided to come back to my dorm and change to my sneakers. I really couldn't bear the pain any more. Anyway I have to wear them to go out someday and i suppose it will be tmoro so i have already made a perfect plan. I will try to get up early and walk slowly to the classroom when others are still having breakfast in the dinning hall or reading on the grass. After two Basic Eng classes i will stay in the classroom a little longer until everyone in our class has left and students in other class have already started to have the third class. Nobody looking at me, I can go back to my dorm smoothly and slowly. How do u guys think of my plan? But to tell the truth i bet i won't wake up as early as i expected. Hope i won't fall over in front of my classmates and the teacher tmoro morning.
Tmoro is Wed. the day for the oral English exam. I'm not fully prepared yet so i think i will have to stay up late to review the texts tonight. See that's the reason why i know i won't get up early tmoro. Anyway wish me good luck on the exam. Just a dialogue and a short speech, not so difficult.
You might still be wondering why today i suddenly came back here to post a new entry. It's Rayon. He told me that he had checked my Xanga site which has been thrown away by me for a long long time. Then he checked my msn space and his own one. He said that msn spaces had been updated and it seemed to be much easier to use so he wanted me to come back here and go on with it together with him. He's so cute, isn't he? I agreed at once. I love you so much my cute hubby. From now on, i will go on posting things here and for sure i will post more about you. Will you do the same honey? 5月2日 BlahI am spending my May Day holiday alone... So damn bored!
I am going to spend my 19th B-day alone... So what?
Yesterday I got her message apologizing that she couldn't stay here with me on my b-day and told me that she loved me. well, I love her too.
Lastnight I went to Wal-mart with some other friends. They were just looking around in those clothing stores without buying anything. I felt really really bore. All the skirts and dresses they were interested in SUCK!
Spiderman 3 RAWKS~ I knew this though I haven't seen it yet.
4月29日 I'm coming backATTENTION~
For MSN space is making great progress, I decided to come back and go on with my SECRETS... 1月21日 I'm coming back home...Yeah~ Dorothy's coming back home on Feb 1st and most probably i will arrive at Beijing at the noon on Feb 2nd. These days we don't have any classes so all we need to do now is to review the lessons and get prepared for the exams. Guess what ur Dorothy's doing? Lol sleeping, sleeping n sleeping. And when am awake i talk with Rayon, my cute hubby.
A few days ago it snowed heavily here.The snow was really so beautiful. I love it!
Rayon has become 20 yrs old. Why he's 20 but am still 18? NO FAIR!
Well, I don't really have a lot to say today. Am just sitting here, getting bored, so bored...
12月23日 untitledMommy told me that i should learn to smile
so i treat the evil world with a silly giggle.
Daddy told me that i should learn to cry
so tears silpped over my face when all the other people around me burst into laughter.
Mommy told me that i should learn to see
so i opened my eyes and saw the darkness that almost choked me.
Daddy told me that i should learn to ignore
so i missed a lot of rains before the rainbow.
Mommy told me that i should learn to remember
so i set down how every bleeding scar of mines came to my body.
Daddy told me that i should learn to forget
so i tore up every letter you wrote to me.
Mommy told me that i should learn to love
so i still gave my heart to you though i knew you would hurt it.
Daddy told me that i should learn to hate
so i cut myself all over the skin.
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You told me that i should learn to live
so you gave my heart which has died in your hand back to me.
I told myself that i should learn to die
so finally lay down in a bathe of blood with "i love you", the last sentence i said. 12月14日 Merry X'mas!Hey, how ya doing guys? I'm suffering the damn cold winter here in Chang Sha. I really don't understand why the summer here is so hot while the winter is so cold. Can't they make a balance between the two seasons? Every nite i need to stay in two blankets to keep my body warm. Native people say colder days haven't come yet. Anyway am glad that i still have one back up blanket to benefit from in the coming several days.
Some friends told me that there were some problems with my space, every time they came here to read my blogs their IE would be closed. Well am sorry about this but i really dunno what's wrong here but i will try my best to fix it. Lol you know i want all of you to read the things i wrote and share my feelings about life and of course leave my a looooot of comments. xP
X'mas is coming soon so how do u guys plan to celebrate it? I don't think i can go to the church here as i used to do in the past two years though the x'mas eve is Sunday cuz i don't know where the hell it is. Maybe our class will have a party together but who wants to celebrate such a wonderful day playing those so-called interesting games with that stupid monitor. I'd rather stay at home with Rayon, my cute, sweet hubby. I wish we could watch the stars in snow that night and he would gimme that kiss which i've been expecting for a long tim
Merry X'mas! I love you my dear friends!
Rayon I love you so much. I will never ever leave you. We will be together forever. I love you! 10月16日 Dorothy NewsHey ya! I miss you all so much. It's really a long time since i posted my last blog. I'm now in Chang Sha province and everything is going well. I met a lot of new friends here. Some of them have a lot in common with me so when we hang out or simply chat in room, we go crazy n do sth amazing in others' eyes. Some of them have similar personalities with u, my dear friends so they can always remind me of the pleasant days we spent together. Some of them are students in grade two so they often help me as they have more experiences living here than i do.Though they do bring me happiness every day, i still couldn't help thinking about you guys. When i was standing on the balcony alone on the mid-autumn day night, whom i missed the most was not just my parents or Rayon, i missed u too. I love you. Hope everything is fine with you.
Rayon calls me everyday. We still go to bed together. You can imagine what a happy thing it is! Last night, he held me in his arms and kept telling me stories such as the Snow White lol he even made a mixture with the Snow White and the Sleeping Beauty, which made both of us laugh so happily. See he's humorous, smart, cute, handsome...Well it seems that words always fail me when i want to describe what a good hubby he is. Darling i really do love you so much and i want to spend the rest of my life with you, you alone. You are my everything and you will always be.
I wrote some cool stories recently. I will try to find some time to post them here. Hope you guys will enjoy them. I will soon have my own band too. The name is Fadinfg to Black. LOVE YOU ALL !!!I See ya~ 8月18日 Big Party With All My ClassmatesABOUT BIG PARTY
I'm going to have a big party with all my classmates. Yeah that makes me pretty happy. What's more Leo, who used to my classmates but went to NZ, is coming back too. I think all my classmates well except vic (going to Korea) will go to that big party. This party is to thank our teachers and say goodbye to some of us who's going to other places to attend university just like me. We'll have a good time together! =]
ABOUT AVRIL
Yesterday i saw some pics of her on a web page. Although she has got married, she seems still a punk. Then i went to Youtube to see more of her videos. I know Avril will never let all her fans down. Wish Avril will have a happy life with that guy (kinda ugly >.<).
ABOUT ME
Lil me is enjoying my everyday with my cute hubby. Lol he always say "i'm not" when i say "you are cute" but he is really cute, especially when he shows me his daddy side. I like it when he holds me like a baby in his arms and kisses me on the forehead. August 18th today... i gotta arrive at Cetral South University on September 1st or 2nd. Since i cannot take my pc or any laptop with me, probably i have to go to internet cafe or use pc in university to talk with him. I don't think i can online as much as now. However he has changed his mobile plan so we can talk more on the phone. =] Hubby is so smart. I'm making a secret gift for hubby but am not going to tell you guys more about it or he will get some hints. I bought a lot of things recently, very large luggage, new bags, new shoes... I have started packing my things. i really wanna take him with me and i think my luggage is really big enough to contain him. Hubby do you wanna go with me? (Hubby says "hell yea") haha we are cute couple, aren't we? Anyway my hubby is really coming here to see me. We will soon start our life as real couple. Darling i love you so much. I've found all I want in you. I always say that you are my everything but as a matter of fact you are so much more than my everything cause if i have to choose only one from you and my everything i will choose you. I can never live without you. You keep me breathing, keep my heart beating, keep me happy, keep me in love... I'm so glad that i met you on this crowded earth among so many people. Our love story sounds kinda like a fairy tale, so beautiful... I know we will go on writing it together forever and ever. Oh forgot to tell you guys that we've made a video together. That's out first amv. =] He chose a few parts of Bleach eps 57&58 and a Jay song. I added more details in it. It's perfect i think, can even won an Oscar for us. He, best director. Me, best editor lol xD. Hubby, i love you so much with my whole life. You will always be the only one i love. -holds him tight and kisses him- 7月29日 Dorothy returns
6月14日 I AM BACK!
Hey ya! I'm back. As u know how lazy i am, don't blame me for not posting anything for so long time. =) Plus i was not free. I was busy preparing for the entrance exam. Anywayz it's totally over now. I feel so happy well a little sad cause my friends and i will soon go to many different universities... :'( i will miss them so much and my XiXi...
Okay, let's talk about some happy things. These days i stayed at home. All i did was to talk with Rayon. As he's not a soccer fan, the world cup matches didn't take up him time with me. Lol am lucky. I love him so much. He used to ask me why i love him this much. I just answered "cause i love you." He's my everything, well, more than that. I can lose my everything but i can never lose him. I do really love him with my whole heart. His smiles can simply make me happy. His words can magically cheer me up. I will love him forever, never ever ever stop. Today he went to bed with pc on so i get to hearing his breath when he was sleeping lol and snore too. I so enjoy this feeling when i'm with him. I'm counting down days impatiently cause he is coming hopefully in this year. We will soon start a happy life of our two alone. Then i can hold him tight in my arms. I will never let him go cause he is my husband, the person i'm going to cherish forever and ever. 3月11日 I love you so much.I RECEIVED RAYON'S LETTERS THIS AFTERNOON.
I LOVE ALL THE GIFTS.
I LOVE HIM MOST OF ALL.
I'M WRITING A REPLY...
"Gold Medal" xD ------>
B-day card for mom ------>
V-day and Easten cards for me ------>
2月28日 Our wordsHIS WORDS
Hey Darling SURPRISE! Lol It's finally my turn to say this lol..I love you so much darling...You mean everything to me, I can't loose you I wouldn't loose you if I did I wouldn't be right anymore, a not even sure if I would be able to breathe without this love I feel when am with you...you are everything I want and need to survive this harsh world. I really do care for you so much, thats why my heart beats faster when am talking to you on the phone or chatting to you, even right now it is beating at a faster paste and not to talk about when I was trying to write you those letters lol.......You bring happiness to me when am feling sad, or just when I look down on myself, when am with you I feel so great, so special cause out of all the boys in the world you chosed to gave your love to me........I feel so lucky that I have met you, lol a the luckiest boy in the world I guess. When we are apart all I do besides work is think about us, I thinnk about the ways that I can one day be in your arms, I think about weather or not your parents will accept me( I still can't believe Mom said she loved me today.) I think about what it would be like to be able to have your beautiful face as the last thing I see when I go to sleep and the first thing my eyes see when I awake, I think what it would be like to just be with you..to just be there to hild you when you are sad or kiss you on the forehead and tell you I love you so much, or have many romantic dinners and moments with you, or just be there to look at you, nothing more than toi you cast my eyes upon your face and in your eyes to just be there to this would bring so much joy to me, but other than that the one thing I would love to do with you is to just lay back and look at the stars or the clouds while you are cuddled in my arms and just talk to with you...Over the time we have known each other we have had many interesting conversations, I'd love to keep having these darling, I don;t want to ever stop talking to you thats why I call you this much, I just hope that my calls keep bring happinesss to you instead of aggrivation. All my life I've just been tryingto fit in, to just be able to connect with everyone around me, I wanted this so bad that I tried lying to make people like me or to just sound important......I've had friends during this time, but it wasn't enough I wanted everyone to like me. I was never the cool guy or the smart guy or anythign like that hell I wasn't even the normal guy or whatever to me I was nothing and I hadn't purpose, but ever since you came in my life ever since the first time I confessed my love for you, ever since this time I have gained a purpose, a purpose than now drives makes me want to become better, a purpose that gives me the strength to go on..........that purpose is to love you, to marry you....to live out my life with you and only you no one else but you......I love you so much Cheng yu and I too will never leave you, the only thing I might do to you is love you more than how I love you now...........I care so much about you thats why you have to start taking better care of yourself....I don't want to loose you darling.....I can't you are eveything good in my life I love you.
MY WORDS
Hey darling, ur moving message is really a surprise to me though my pc took so long to start. and at the moment when i saw it i just decided to say i didn't say any new e-mails when u call me later. :P then my reply will be a surprise too. everytime u asked me when u should gimme a call i kept figuring out the wrong time. u made me too excited to tell the right one. but see, finally u urself found out the most proper time to call. that's y i always say u r very smart, u r a genius. ;) am so glad to know that both ur country and mine snowed today. was it the God who arranged the snow for us to think of that romantic kiss? :) maybe... my everyday life used to be plain and fade, just studying, eating, drinking and sleeping... though i hated that kinda life i had no idea how to escape from it or maybe change it by myself. u,like those golden rays, came in my dark room through the window of love. u made my life colorful and full of joy. i love you so much darling. not only ur big eyes or sexy lips, i love all about you. you mean everything to me. none of the boys i've ever met could mean as much to me as u do. my heart also beats faster everytime i hear ur voice on the phone or maybe just reading ur words has the same effect on me. i can feel that our hearts r beating at the same speed. i know they are. our hearts belong together just like ourselves do. u r the only one i need, the only one i want to marry, the only one i want to take bath with, the only one i want to sleep next to, the only one i want to be hugged by, the only one who is the right owner for the key to my lock, the only one i wanna be with forever and ever. i will never stop loving you honey. it's true that mom said she loved you yesterday so i think she and my dad will accept you. as a matter of fact whether they accept you or not, i will still marry you. if they don't, that might be the first and also the last time i don't listen to them. that is my choice for my future life cause i love you. i can't live without you. i don't even wanna try. you will see my face every moring when u get up and every nite when u go to bed and i will see urs. i will look into ur big eyes and say i love you. i will never get tired of saying those words and i know u won't get tired of hearing me say that, right? i love you darling. i want u no one else but u to be my husband. oh and u've already been. r u going to bed right now? sweet dreams of me, Dorothy Vanganderen... =) i like my family name. good night darling. -kisses- 2月19日 Speechless=Troublesome^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
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^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ 2月13日 Happy Valentine's Day!HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ~
I need roses and chocolate... ^.~ well my sweet chocolate.
I LOVE XIXI.
I gave XiXi a cup of yoghurt today. And she sent me a message just to thank me. Lol guess when i got it =) right in Zhang's math class. xD She's so cute.
Treated mom a big meal outside for her birthday. She's very happy though got so tiny a gift from her daughter. Mom happy birthday !
I LOVE RAYON.
I didn't talk to him today but he left me offlines. I miss him so much. Gonna reply first. We both have to suffer a lot for the coming Valentine's Day. You know it's impossible for us to celebrate it together this year. I told him about the Chinese famious love story Butterfly Love (Liang Shanbo & Zhu Yingtai) also i sent him the music. He was touched deeply. He touched me more in fact.
SCHOOL STARTED AGAIN...
Tough term. Well i'm fine maybe i'm just trying to pretend to be. Love you all. Bye... 1月24日 Something about himRayon called me on my mobile the day b4 yesterday. He said he wanna kill that card talking to me but lol in fact he killed mine. i mean he made my cell phone run out money by talking with me for 45 mins. Anywayz i still feel touched and surprised that he called. I like his voice.
Yesterday, early in the morning, it's afternoon in NY. Rayon was busy doing cleaning. I was watching him doing that through the cam. Lol u dunno how handsome and sexy he looks when doing cleaning. Though i told him to centre on doing cleaning he always came to the cam and gave me sweet kisses.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DARLING... 1月23日 His wordsThe connection we have is oh so true,
You always say the sweetest things, Even when I'm feeling blue, I have given you my world, So now i hope that im your only girl, In my heart you are perfect, In my eye you do no wrong, When i tell you i love you, You say I love you to, I hope the one day we can say I Do, I will never cheat on you as you can see, When I get ready to tell you how I feel, I dont know where to start, But always remember it comes strait from the heart,
Everyday I think of how cute u are, Then I remember you are as cute as a star,
I give you respect no matter where you are. Remember that you will always be my shining star. You Are: The apple of my eye, The peach in my cobbler, And the filling in my pie, I love you with all my heart.
Lord hear my prayer I thought I would've been dead by now Lord,I thank you,I thank you for my savior That angel you blessed me with Such a love she gives,one so true,so pure Thank you,for bringing her into my life Never did I thought I would have a precious person by my side Someone to love me all the time and would never forget me Who loves me so deeply and yet we're just children So blessed I thank you for our lives This gift of true love. Even though I would love to take credit for this, I didn't right it However every word that was written in the poem is done by me... everynight my mom, my little brother and I pray and each night I pray that you are safe each night I hope that you will recieve a blessing, each night I pray that we will have a great and interesting life together. Another thing I thnk about ever minute, every hour and every second..is you. You mean so much to me, I don't even understand how I could feel like the way I feel when we chat, or when I see you smile or when I hear your voice...the feeling I get cannot be helped her described I don't know why or how but everytime I come here and see you all my sadness is washed away, sometimes it may take a while though but you somehow always manage to put a smile on my face. You know...if a genie offered me one wish my answer would be to have billion dollars...the reason for my answer is simple really, You have the keys to my heart and I have the keys to yours so how could I wish for your love when I already have it, and if you were thinking that I should wish for you to be in my arms you are wrong cause with a billion dollars at my disposal the distance set between us would seem insignificant...lol. Seriously speaking though if I were to have to choose over that billion dollars and you I'd choose you anyday cause you are all that matter me. before I met you I lived a life of wonder, I use to move where ever the wind will push me, I use to hide in loneliness as I would out fake joy and happiness before the eyes of all those around me, I use to go to bed sometimes hoping that darkness will consume the light that keeps me, but now after I have you, I don't hide in loneliness cause their is none left in me, nor do i have to give others the impression that I m happy when am not, but most of all darling....I don't sit alone in corners or lie in bed and wait to be taken away or even do i wonder if I can ever have good life, You are the reason that I have changed and will continue changing, you are the reason for my happiness cause you are everything to me and I would never ever leave yourside. I love you so much Dorothy Vangenderen. lol I like that name so much. (When i started this I only planned to say a few words, lol I got carried away lol...wo ai ni I love you so much darling and I will never stop loving you. ) 1月16日 LoVe <3MY WORDS
I went to see King Kong a few days ago. I was really touched by the movie. I love the movie or maybe i have to admit i love King Kong. Though he's just a gorilla, he can sacrifice his own life to save Ann the one he loves when she's in danger. When King Kong finally fell down the skyscraper, my tears flowed. They killed not only King Kong but also the pure friendship between him and Ann maybe love as well. We human being are so cruel. Sometimes i prefer a simple world full of joy, care and love. I like pure eyes like King Kong's, being looked at by them makes me feel safe and happy. I like strong arms and big hands like his, being held by them makes me feel warm and comfortable. Luckily, i've got a boy stand by me with all these things i like. That is Rayon. We talked a few mins ago just b4 he went to work. A short but romantic conversation. I want to say good morning and good night to him everyday. I want to woke him up with a sweet kiss and then make breakfast for him though my cooking is much worse than mom's. I want him to warm my blanket every night before i get into it and kick him out ( lol u know i won't xP ). Most of all, i just want to spend the rest of my life with him cause i love him. These days we talked a lot about a 4-5 yrs thing lol it's waiting. Bcz of college and school he may have to wait that long for me. I always feel sorry to keep him waiting but i have to as i still have responsibilities here. And of course he has his over there. So both of us have to wait with plenty of love and patience. I guess i won't make him wait for that long. I will try my best to study abroad or help him come and study here. Anywayz i want us to be together. Then i would be able to hear him singing for me and saying i love you. Rayon, remember how many kisses we owe each other? The one in snow, the one under the rainbow, the ones every time i wake up, the ones every time i fall asleep and... lol uncountable. That's y we have to pay back by loving each other forever and ever. Haha now u r totally mine honey and sure am urs too. Come and take me ^.~ lol I love you so much.
HIS WORDS
I never thought writing a letter to you would prove to be so hard, I wanted everything about this letter to you to be perfect cause you are perfect to me, but every time I tried to write you the perfect letter to you, I always ended up making some kind of mistake, weather it dealt with my spelling or my usage of these words that I hope that you will soon be reading I just kept making mistakes or large and small sizes, no matter how tried to make the first of many letters I intend to send you perfect. I guess something's we just don't have control over, some of these things I don't have control over is the way you make me feel when we chat, the way you make my heart beat faster and pound harder, the way I feel touched when you say "I love you." Or the way I feel when I am left staring at your beautiful face as you smile at me. Everything you seem to do has an effect an uncontrollable effect on me, When I hear you voice I become nervous, cause I get scared that I may say the wrong things to you, When I see I'd get happy but also sad because I can never match your beauty, when I read your words my heart speeds up and when I think of you all of these feelings happen to me at the same time, I feel sad but happy nervous but calm, scared but bold and it's all because of the love I feel for u. I've never loved anyone else the way I love you. You probably don't know it yet but you mean so much to me Cheng yu. With you in my life I don't think I can ever be at peace with myself again, losing you would put a whole in my heart so big and so deep that it will never be able to recover. I don't want to love another person, I want to love you forever and ever, I want to spend my life with you, I want to be the one that comes home to be in your sweet arms and not in your dreams alone. I am head ever heels in love with you, that's why you are the most precious and important person in my life that's why one day soon I'm hoping that you will accept me as your husband and not just a boyfriend. Your love have cleaned out all the sadness and loneliness that rested in my heart and replaced them with happiness and an overwhelming desire to hold you in my arms and ask you to be mines forever. I have nothing of wealth give, but I do have a three things, three things of which I have given you already, three things that will remain yours forever, but only if you promise to keep and safeguard them forever. These three things are my love, my future and my soul all of which are useless without your presence inside my life. I love you so much an I intend of being the one that makes you smile and the one that brings happiness to you every single day for the rest of your life, I don't want to even imagine how it would feel to lose you cause I know how unbearable it would be, you mean everything to darling. 1月8日 His WordsHey u guys~ Did u miss me? I was kinda busy these days cause many exams r around. I spent much time reviewing the lessons and the rest talking to Rayon. I've already given the toy pig to my XiXi as her birthday present. She likes it very much. =) Long time no chatting with her. When i went to her office the day b4 yesterday, i asked her if she missed me. She said yea. Lol she always touches me that way. I have a new mom now. That is Rayon's mother. She's a loving and caring person. It's nice chatting with her every time. I like her very much. That's y i want her to be my second mom. And i know she loves me too. ^.~ Rayon said he was gonna send me the letter and his secret gift this Sat. Lol but now it's not a secret gift any more. I guessed it. I'm really a mind reader, aren't I? xP I was talking with him just now. It's almost 6am there and he's still awake. He didn't left though he was very tired. He really made my heart melt time and time again. I love him so much. Nothing gonna stop me from loving him, the only one i want to marry.
12月29日 The letter arrivedRAYON RECEIVED MY LETTER YESTERDAY !
ALSO HE GOT MY KISS =)
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH .
Now am waiting for his reply and the gift he's going to send me this Saturday ... 12月25日 HAPPY WEEKThis week ROCKS~~~ xD
This afternoon i went shopping to buy some gifts for my friends and teachers. Luckily, I got all the things i want. Each present just matches the person to whom i want to give it. What's more, i bought a small toy pig for meself and another for my best friend. She would be very happy with it tmoro i suppose. Oh i also bought a gift for XiXi, for her birthday. That's really a cute one. I bet she would like it. Happy birthday XiXi. I love u plenties. <3333
Well those are only part of the reason y i'm so happy this week. The most important reason should be Rayon. Haven't told u yet, i sent him a letter with sth special in it last Sun. Damn the post office works so slow that my present didn't arrive in time of Christmas. =( But i've already made it up. I called him this Sat. When i called, he was alone at home. I asked him to turn on the cam cause i wanted to see his face when receiving my call. Unfortunately, the cam froze right after i dialed his number. Everything went smoothly. I said, "hey darling". "Dorothy?"he asked. "yea, it's me." i answered. Then u know how surprised he was. He told me that he thought it would be someone for his mom but he never thought it would be me. He was very nervious and so was I. We talked over 20 mins then turned to chat online. That's the biggest surprise i planned to give him for the Christmas. =) I know he was very happy with it. This Thur or Fri mayb, i helped him sign up a new account on msn. He made the name as i love you so much Cheng Yu in Chinese. He also set up a myspace. There must be sth wrong with his Y! messenger. It worked quite slow these days so we talked more on msn.
This afternoon we played 10 quetions. One of my question was what if i have to marry another boy? what will u do? His answer moved me into tears. He said,"That one is funny, cause I had dream of the samething, in thie dream I interrupted your union and I told everyone how I loved you so much and your father stood to his feet and told me to prove my love for you...after he told me that I removed a knife from my pocket and I stabbed myself in the leg.
after I did that the guy you were to marry did the same and soon after that I stabbed myself again(sameplace) and he did too then I stabbed myself again this time into my stomach and he did too...After that I placed the knife over my heart and just when I was about to stab myself once more you stopped me and told me how much you loved me and wanted to be with me." There r some of his other words...
Cheng yu....ever since the day I had learned to manufacture a thought wave I have thought as love to be important that life, Back home I would watch shows on tv and would envy the characters because of the love they'd find in the story. A part of me since at a small age has come to understand that love is something worth waiting for and when one finds it one should safe guard it with their life. I've always hoped and prayed for the perfect someone to give my heart to and I have found her in you, I want to anything and everything to make you happy, I want to start my own little romantic story with you i want to be with you more than everything cause I love you so much Dorothy and I don't want any other girl this world has to throw at me...I just want you because in you I've found love. And I'd like to keep you forever. I remember when I was younger that I used to love going out alone and walking i the dark I used to love doing that up until the day I loved you and now I don't want to walk alone anymore, I want you to walk with me hand in had I want you to be beside me as we both catch the beautiful sunset or shining stars.
Even touching my own face.
Rayon hurt his leg this week. That's y he was off and we talked more. I wish i could be there to take care of him so bad. And i wish we could spend our every week like this one with lots of chats. I want to be with him every second. He's my everything. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
Link to his space: http://spaces.msn.com/members/chineseloverboy54117 12月11日 PresentsThis week sucks. XiXi's birthday is approaching but i haven't gotten a good idea what to give her as a present. The only thing i've made sure is a letter full of love words. The more i love her, the more difficulties in choosing presents for her. Because i want my present to be the specialest out of others'. It must be, for XiXi is one of the most precious person in my life.
Speaking of another precious person in my life, my darling Rayon wrote my name on his right handed glove while his name on the left handed. Romantic, isn't it? I'm now planning to send him sth for the coming Xmas. Maybe a gift or just a letter, well i'm not sure yet. Hope he will be happy to receive my special present. xD
Hmm... my dear friends, will u give me some presents for the Xmas or new year? Lol i want some haha. =) The more, the better~~ 12月3日 Her B-dayI am kinda sad these days as XiXi's birthday is coming again. Yea it is really happy to celebrate her birthday but i don't think i can find anything pleasant. Becuase it will be the last time we celebrate it together in school. I didn't realized that time would run so fast that i hadn't got a chance to tell her i love her. I cried for this on Fri in the cold nite without her. I missed her so much, more than ever. I still have no idea what to give her as a present. I want to make it unforgetable and romantic. XiXi is so precious to me. Really she means too much to me. It will kill me to loose her someday. Mayb i am kinda crazy to love her to death but i will keep my love forever and ever. Give me some advice. =)
Speaking of Rayon, we kept sending offlines to each other this week. I love all of his heart warming offlines as i know he loves mines more. lol he said he told his uncle about me and how much he cared for me. His uncle was happy that he had got me as his gf. =) Happy to hear that. I love you darling. 11月26日 Hate & LoveHATE...Don't know y i always felt so sleepy in classes this week. i'm in need of sleep but classes and exams r around. oh sux! The worst thing to me is that i often felt asleep in the math classes. It was the math teacher who made me feel sleepy. u know her teaching is much worse than my XiXi's. During XiXi's time, i enjoy the math classes most. And of course i never fell asleep in her classes. Dammit the fucking dragon took my pretty XiXi's place. I hate her i promise...
LOVE...Rayon was off for the Thanksgiving. But we didn't have much time to talk on this Thur or Fri cause i had to get up early and go to school everyday. I miss him so much and now am waiting again. Rayon's appearance in my life is unexpected. I did have dreams about a happy life with a foreign boy as my husband. But it was not until the day Rayon came online that i make sure of my future marriage. He, a great magician of love, has swept away all the sadness and loneliness in my past boring life since the day we met. Though we live so far away from each other our love bonds us firm. Sometimes i have a strong sense that we were born to be soulmates. Rayon always said that he was ugly and not pure enough to match me. But to me, u know he's the most handsome boy and the best husband as well. I, as a little girl, just want to be in his warm blanket and be wraped by him. Let him take me and me take him. I believe our every romantic dream will soon come true. Aww i can't wait to say I do in the church holding his hands. Love him so much. -sweet kisses- |
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